Welcome to the films section! I am so pleased you've made it this far, thank you for taking time out to view my creations.
The origin of all my films is poetry, before I started screenwriting I had a long and unending love affair with poetry that started when I was eight, it's the only way I process my thoughts and communicate.
The below film is a project, that is very close to my heart. It is based on a poem I wrote bearing the same title. It is a dark and poetic journey into the complicated life of young woman navigating, through multiple lascivious relationships.
The film is very provocative and was written and directed to make the viewer uncomfortable, it explores very serious and dark subject matters & contains content of a sexual nature, please bare this in mind before you press play.
BLUE AS EVER
Blue As Ever is my first short film, the entire process was definitely a baptism by fire, but it was also one of the most best experiences, I've ever had in my life.
The film looks at heart break from a male perspective, the protagonist Jaime is a charming and alluring young man but he is also very troubled, he feels every emotion deeply, sometimes too deeply.
The project is based on poem I wrote entitled "He Had An Affinity For Broken Things" I view my films as poetry in motion & every act in this film is ultimately that, I have included the original poem that inspired my the project, underneath the film, so you can see how it all began.
He Had An Affinity For Broken Things
I took him to the grave yard, I showed him where the bodies where buried. I let him know about the demons and the witches and the things that go bump in the night.
I explained to him that it is complicated and I am not easy I am hard. I didn't have a simple childhood, it was quite messy and it did affect me & I have these afflictions and they do haunt me.
I tried to explain to him that if you give me a chance if you love me, I'll love you endlessly, but I would endlessly give you problems, I would be messy I wouldn't be simple. I am not clear I am not a simple book to read. I don't have a straight forward beginning like others do, I have no idea of what the end will be.
My heart is just distant and weird and random & once upon a time I loved another human being more than I loved myself.
I loved him so deeply & naturally it was so simple like breathing, he was the moon & the stars. I adored him. I can't even put into words how I felt for him. It felt like I couldn't breath when I wasn't near him.
It felt like the world stopped when I wouldn't hear from him. It felt like everything came crashing down when he wasn't with me. It was an affliction. It was intense it was painful. It was everything I'd hope to experience and never want to experience again.
I don't know if I can love anyone the way I loved him. I don't know If I can love anyone more than I loved him. I don't know if I can love. I told him this and he told me that he had an affinity for broken things
He wanted to so badly put me back together but he couldn't &I don't want to break you, I don't want to hurt you. Because you deserve a nice girl who is normal and isn't a broken thing.
You deserve a girl who isn't haunted. You deserve better, you don't deserve me, so go out and find better, people like me who are broken should go out and find other broken things.
Hopefully one day I'll find someone broken. More broken than me and we can take time out and maybe mend each other.